Wednesday, December 02, 2009



i think mr hon was correct =)

sometimes we're just so trapped by the circumstances that we're in, that we forget to step back and look at what we're doing. and even when we do that, we still can't see the bigger picture.

but i think mr hon missed out something important.

that it's not really the circumstances that matter. but rather how we choose to react to those circumstances. perhaps this is being idealistic, but we choose how we want to react. whether we rise to meet it with determination and grit, or with despondence and resignation, it's a choice that we make. yeah, those around us influence those decisions, but it's ultimately our choice.

choice.

something that we don't often think we have. yet i try to constantly remind myself that i am responsible for how i react. if i choose to see it positively, it will be. and of course, the opposite applies.

never forgetting, of course, that God up there is always watching over me. it's funny sometimes, how i think that i can only turn to him in times of trouble. it's both a 'tribute' and an insult. the former because it seems that he is more 'powerful' than me; the latter because I already know that God loves me so so so so so much more than I can ever imagine and that He should be the one I turn to for all my needs, for all my wants, for all my life.

i hope that the choices i make will keep this Council together. there's a sense of foreboding that cannot be dispelled in my heart, an awful picture that we're survivors of a sinking ship desperately clinging to flotsams that drift ever further and further apart. i don't want us to drift apart; i want us to be together.

it's not that there's safety in numbers.
it's because I love them so much that I want to be with them, no matter what happens.
Sink or swim, we'll do it together.

cause we'll walk from the game with pride and fame
we feel no fear, we feel no pain.

sometimes it's difficult to adequately express how much I love my friends. it frustrates me, sometimes, that they'll never be able to see the depth of my heart.