Wednesday, April 30, 2008



If you haven't noticed by now, I'm on an indefinite hiatus until... I feel re-sparked, re-energized and re-lieved

Sunday, April 20, 2008



I want to wallpaper my room with soft cuddly pillows so that I can throw myself against the wall without breaking about seventeen different bones.

Now, in linus-isn't-being-an-emoslut-news, Life's Healing Choices is a fantastic book! Thanks to Aswhin, Edwin, Kenneth, Reuben, Eugene and all others who chipped in to buy the book! It's really quite thought-provoking.

Plus, I've come to realize how immature my previous previous post is. It's not about about people, it's about caring enough to let them not care and still care anyway.

Saturday, April 19, 2008



Never. Slashed. Pained. Dormant. Slashed. Hurt. Healing

Kudos to anyone who figures that out. Do tell me.


Anyway, Dramafest '08 was bittersweet. Two weeks of preparation culminating in a night of dramatic proportions.

Every arm movement, every step, glide, every flick of the wrist, toss of the head, words whispered gently, spat angrily... Every bit of each performance seemed to resonate throughout my body, feeling the energy coursing through me as each actor wove his own intricate picture, the eventual masterpiece the culmination of all the actors' hard work.

Dramafest '08 concludes my ELDDS "career" in VS.

CO career ended on a painful, but immensely valuable note.
ELDDS ended on a pleasant, memorable note.
God grant my PSB career a fulfilling and meaningful ending note.

Let me hope that it will all end melodiously, dramatically and meaningfully; like the notes of a beautiful chord.

C-E-G
Do Mi So
Do

Thursday, April 17, 2008



I'm sick and tired of it.

Being labeled something I'm not, being laughed at by people...
People who I shouldn't even care about.

大天王？

Forget it. Just forget it. I regret caring, holding on to hope that never really existed. Simply because I kept telling myself that they couldn't be that shallow.

Well, I'm sick and tired of it.

Damn bloody sick and tired of it.

So those three people can just sod off. If I cared, I don't want to care now. I've been holding out for too long for a hope too tiny for people too unworthy. It's not worth it, holding out for such bastards.

Yeah, bastards. I never said it out, because I always felt that if I did, then they'd think that I didn't care.

Well, now that's exactly the point that I want to put across, so why not?

You bastards.
You bastards.
You bastards.

I don't care anymore. I'm not going to care anymore. Caring only got me hurt, got me confused and distracted from what I was suppose to do. It's just not worth it. I always thought I needed you guys.

But now I don't.

大天王?

Gosh, I feel dumb for caring so much.

Sunday, April 13, 2008



Rhapsody was a freaking freaking freaking blast!

Seriously? Seriously. Heavenly seriously!

How good was it? How good was it? It was freaking VSCHOIR-GOT-A-STANDING-OVATION good. That's how uber smashingly-awesomely KICKASS it was!

Euphoria, really really euphoric after that. Could see the simply-brimming JOY in everyone's face. The sheer exuberant joy of life! The CELEBRATION of an AWESOME Rhapsody!

It was amazing, really amazing. Words fail me!

Oh, if you're expecting long narrative pseudo-essays, NOPE! Refer to Kenneth's blog for a good accurate narrative version of what happened. His narrative skills far surpass mine. Lalala!

And that's all I'm going to blog about Rhapsody! For now at least.

Oh yeah!

Happy birthday to KEGAN and MYSELF

Super special awesome 18th and 16th birthday ( respectively )

Sunday, April 06, 2008



Well, had my birthday celebration yesterday. T'was really fun. Thanks to all that came over, especially Davis and ChunYong =)

I'm enjoying life now. Learning to release unnecessary burdens...I'm much more relaxed now.

Got so caught up caring before, caring about everything and anything except what was truly important. Caring about people who didn't want me to care about them, or wanted me to care without reciprocating the concern. I don't need people like these. I have people that matter in my life, people that have stuck by me throughout this entire pseudo-ordeal and helped me see who my true friends are. It's not about being with everyone, but being with someone, and being someone who can truly help another.

Been so immature all this while, caught up in self-delusion and airheaded-conceit. Time to learn and show who I can really be, who I really am. Life isn't meant to be lived depressed and worried, and I don't want to live that way. It's not worth it, hurting over someone who doesn't care in the least, and people who won't return anything no matter how much you've done for them. So why bother? Yes, there's that entire thing about friendship, and sticking it out for a little bit of hope. I'm not slamming the door in anyone's face, but it's not fair to me either. If they still want to be friends then by all means, I still love them as they are. But if not, I'm not going to keep begging them, and throwing away pride and dignity for some of them whom I didn't even wrong.

No, I'm not doing that. It's just not worth being unhappy over people like these.

So I'm going to be happy in life, like life is meant to be. Happy being with people I know, and even people I don't know, getting to know them. Being with people who will stick with you, who won't abandon you just because they're angry, but instead true friends who will tell you and help you change. That's the kind of people I need with me.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008



Today was fun =)

Thank you April Fools.

Some classes went really wild. What with switching of entire classrooms, re-arrangement of chairs and such. Our class, being more "boring", didn't really do much. We did hang up [censored] though which gave Mr WongLiangSeng a huge shock. I quote

"What the babi is this?!"

I'm not fond of using ! and ? right next to each other, but that reaction really deserves a !?

Oh, and I spent recess dodging ABCDs. Air-Borne CDs courtesy of the certain group of mats who were happily hurling them around, watching as the CDs ricocheted off the board, tables and people and shattered.

Babis.

Bleh. Quite troubled now though. Something quite shocking and depressing happened this afternoon. Gosh. Quite at a loss of ideas on what to do.

On a bright(er) note, I think I'm really moving towards a state where I can release my troubled emotions much faster and easier now. Yay!