Saturday, November 28, 2009



Friendship sometimes seems fleeting.

when you're with a friend and there's silence after a sentence. do you sit back and enjoy the silence or try and start a new topic? i guess a better question is why I'm so pre-occupied with such small details. meticulous? attentive? or just plain paranoid?

but those who give advice are sometimes those who need it the most and yet forget it. let's step back. step back from the clutter and mess of the smaller picture and look at the bigger picture. hmm, the bigger picture still looks quite messy though. which, i guess, just reflects that i have way too much on my plate right about now.

i'm just too paranoid, end of story.

friendship sometimes seems fleeting.
i try to grab on to the fading laughter, the dying smile, try to keep it there. it's how i feel safe.

Friday, November 27, 2009



Dry Runs for 101 went okay, thank the Lord for that.

I hate it when concern seems rebuffed.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009



Our AAR Agenda

1. Share about what we think went wrong.
2. Discuss ways that we can correct these mistakes
3. Nod heads.
4. Forget everything.
5. Life goes on.

Lino is kinda emo now.

Not angry, just frustrated.
Not irritated, just contemplative.
Not sad, just reflecting.

Why?

Not family, just Council.

Wait.
Shouldn't it be

Not Council, just family?

where did we change?

Saturday, November 21, 2009



I know that I can get people to open up to me, getting inside them and letting them bare everything in their hearts to me.

For better?
Or worse?

I am a confused boy. Lino needs a Heart-To-Heart talk too.

Friday, November 20, 2009



We're Godzilla.
You're LasVegas.
*RAWRCHOMP*

Hadi is epic win. Wet's a slave on Monday. Council Room looks fantastic.

Can this day get anymore win?

I know LTC blogpost is overdue, thousand apologies. Will blog tomorrow; wanna play Heroes5 now ><

Tuesday, November 17, 2009



[Tag Replies]
Fu Zhi: Haha, my holidays don't even start till I go overseas; it's all sold to Council. Not that I really mind haha. Enjoy your holidays man! You deserve them Mr Yam!
Wet: Yayyyyyyy ^^
Hannah: InBredy bunch is the <3 feelings

[For some reason, one entire paragraph here got deleted so it sounds disjointed. Argh.]

Like an irritating mosquito, LTC will never really die, always popping up when least expected. Having it fall on the weekend right before P101 submission made me detest LTC all the more and I was not expecting a good time. Right from the start, the groupings seemed... well, weird I guess. Got Jesslyn and YuLin in my group, people I know and like (of course ^^) but never really talked to that much. On hindsight, this was probably God's way of showing me how I can be so really wrong sometimes and admit it proudly. Other people like Sanchita, Michael and Joshua; people that I also sorta knew but never talked to much. It seemed like a rojak group, definitely not a really sporty one. I remember thinking that my group wouldn't be easy to be 'high'. And I wanted to be high. I love high. High is fun. High is nice. High is me. I am high. Yay high. I remember looking at Wet's group and being really envious because he had all the fun people like Denny, Nawawi, Neville and HuaYu as well ss Hannah cause she had Jar, ZQ and MingRong.

"...seeing cliques in Jalan Bahtera never failed to make me roll my eyes and walk away."
-Wet's blog.

How true. LTC's not all about spending time with people you know. It's also about getting to know other people, stepping out of your comfort zone with the people you know and love. Because sometimes when we're so happy with what we have, it's hard to remember how we came to love the people in the first place. It took that courage to step out, to open up and learn to accept and love people like Hannah, Wet, Jar etc etc, courage that I realized I suddenly lacked because I was so damn comfortable. Suddenly, it was hard to have to reintroduce myself, what I liked, what was my favourite colour. You know, things that your friends already know. It seemed a bit weird, tiresome even. But we've all gotta start somewhere.

I'm so glad I wasn't put with people I'm familiar with. I'm thankful for the group I got, for the people I 'sorta' knew. I believe that was instrumental to my total enjoyment and appreciation of the camp. They weren't all people I was unfamiliar with; rather, I hungered to know more about them because I realized how little I knew. It was that feeling of "Gosh, I really don't know this person."

Sometimes, I think that knowing someone's favourite colour, favourite food, number of siblings doesn't really qualify as 'knowing them'. I mean, it's just a small thing, just little details. When will stuff like this ever really matter? Apart from birthdays and all; and then most of the time you can always exchange your present if it's not the colour you like and stuff like that.

Yet every big picture is made up of its little parts. Every painting consists of innumerable brush strokes. Yes, knowing these little "mundane' little details doesn't really make you a friend. But if I don't know them, can I consider myself really a friend? It startles me to realize that I saw friendship as something that would not only transcend some details, but completely ignored them as well. What's Hannah's favourite colour? What's Wet's favourite food? What drink does Davis like the best? If you pointed a gun to my head, I couldn't tell you.

Little details like this matter. They're not the big picture, but they make up the big picture.

I love the camp, because every activity meant something. And it wasn't the kind of lesson that was forcibly inserted so that the activity looks meaningful. No. The activities themselves wholly encapsulated those lessons, showing us how those lessons are not only practical, but useful in our lives.

Laser Tag was fun, not just because Jaslin was more excited than any of us that we could play, but because it was with a group of people that would really defend each other. Sure, we didn't roll around and backstab and shout GO GO GO while charging in, but we had each others' backs. Even when Langston went into God-Mode with his haxxored sensors and basically mudhole-stomped me, it was fun. The rain made it even better, a light drizzle that really accentuated the whole combat feeling. We charged through the rain, shoes splashing up little fountains of muddied grass as we shot each other. I remember stepping straight into Jason's line of fire and dying in about 2 seconds. I remember YuLin team-killing me as I retreated and she promptly shot-gunned me.

Their faces are still in my mind. Wet hair plastered to our faces as we screamed, shouted and laughed as we tried to kill each other the way only friends can. Bollywooding around the pole with Langston as he shot and I dodged was hilarious and a memory that I'll never forget. Little details like this matter ^^ I'm not looking back at LTC and thinking "wow that was a great camp". I'm looking back and remember all the expressions, the body language, each and every one of the N2ians as they expressed their joy in a way completely unique to them.

And what would a camp be without its moments of guys being guys. Hadi was epic win during the camp. Bathed like 6 times during a 3D2N camp; that's probably the same number of times I'd bathe at home. The whole turban thing was epic-win and that's definitely seared in my mind - how we calmly walked from the toilet, through the campfire area and back to the bunks with our towel-turbans proudly sitting on our heads. It was a MapleStory moment; bet those turbans added +5 Thick Skin because I have no idea why I was so shameless enough to do such a thing.

Oh right, it was with Hadi.

Hadi - Linus, I lost my cap.
Lino - It's not a cap. It's a freaking bag.
Hadi - I lost my cap. You're not sleeping until I find it.
[5 minutes later and after finding his cap]
Lino - I'm going to sleep now.
Hadi - I have no pillow, I'm not sleeping. You're not sleeping.
Lino - HADI!
Hadi - I got koko crunch and something else for you if you wake up.
Lino - You can't tempt me with ooooooo honey stars!

Lino - Mendel!
Mendel - Yar?
Hadi - You got a virgin face.

Instructor - You in the bunk! Turn off your PSP!
Lino - It's a DS, dumb shit.
Hadi - It's a iPhone.
Lino - It's DS, it stands for dumb shit, dumb shit.
Hadi - Your mother touch screen.
Lino - I just got pwned.

Okay it's 11. I've got from 9 to 12 tomorrow to blog in school since my lessons don't start until then. Sucks. Will update with more (hopefully) insightful reflections of LTC tomorrow. Till then
^^

And I'm off again =3

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Ian - Noooo Wet go away then who teach me dance?
Jarvis - We get the whole dance comm.
Hannah - To teach Ian?
Jarvis - Yar.
Lino - Epic.

Chinese class outing was magicfantabulous. Too bad not everyone was there. Photos uploaded on FB for anyone interested. As usual, I am captured in particularly unglam moments. Go figure.

Tomorrow marks the end of PW with the submission of the InR. Then we are forever freed from the chains of PW. Bittersweet as always.

Holy crap, I think all my exhaustion and fatigue of today just hit me. I swear my world just spun a couple of rounds.

And I want my keyboard. rawr.

And I totally agree with Hadi. "No offense but" is but the clearest signpost that you are going to insult someone so badly that his/her ancestors will cry. Which means it's going to make a great addition to my already extensive arsenal of verbal weaponry. Ph33r me nubz.

On that same note, I remember Hadi discussing atheism.
Sometimes people ask me why I believe in God. I point them to Pascal's Wager. Flawed as it may be.

Okay, time to help ian with his InR. updates... tomorrow? love all of you that read.

and i'm off again ^^

Tuesday, November 10, 2009




I hate P101. Already.

Edit: Okay, that totally can't be the only post. And I'm not feeling so down and annoyed anymore, plus i feel like posting.

Funnily enough, once I started blogging, my arms are starting to ache. Needless to say, I haven't done any strenuous work today except for constantly pushing my hair out of my eyes.

Worship on Sunday was good and fruitful. Surprisingly, what I think is quite bad is apparently good in the eyes of some others, which is really encouraging I guess. Yes, it's about God and all and I'm know that's what's most important. But there's a most keyword in the previous sentence and I think it's only honest to admit that I want, you know, fellow humans to enjoy my playing.

I don't see why people play to show off. What's so great about being able to play the piano that makes one play super difficult and complicated pieces to 'wow' people? I mean, I can sort of understanding that the attention is nice and of course, it's nice to have people think 'wah seh you damn pro' and shizznit like that. But... Okay, maybe I'm just different.

I play for pleasure. Not the sexual kind, although if music gives you an orgasm then by all means go ahead, just don't listen to me if/when I play. I play cause I wanna see people smile, cause I wanna be happy and express myself through playing; not because I want people to think I'm pro. I'm definitely not anyways. Which will probably lead some people to think I'm being sour grapes. These people can suck my banana.

And apparently I'm "tyrannical at times". This re-defines the limits of WTF for me. Okay, I was tyrannical in VS and a slave-driving bitch and yes I enjoyed it. However, this is clearly not the way to operate in JC and I don't wanna continue like this. So I've been trying to be nice and all and not flare up like I've been so tempted to do sometimes when people just don't get instructions.

But lately, certain OGLs have been driving me bonkers. In this lovely modern age of technology, pen-and-paper is hardly required for drafting proposals. On that note, the proposals are supposed to be submitted in soft copy. I'm not asking for the Imperial Verdict on freaking parchment (dipped in tea first, please and thank you), I'm just looking for a soft copy of a proposal. This would require OGLs to sit down at a computer and spend at most half an hour pressing some buttons.

Instead of pushing the computer buttons however, they prefer to push mine. This may be attributed to the fact that, being somewhat human, I display a far greater range of responses than the average computer's "Error 404: You Suck". These responses vary widely, including but not limited to: Shock, Horror and Shocked Horror. The third reaction seems particularly popular amongst them for incomprehensible reasons.

On a more serious note, I think some of the reasons are... lacking, to say the least. OP currently ranks as the top most popular excuse. Even amongst those who's OP has ended. While I can see how OP is important, it's not like I didn't sacrifice OP prep. time for this. I had to sacrifice 3 hours the day before my OP to gao-ding Council stuff and meet OGLs, more than half of whom didn't bloody turn up at all. Yes, I'm a Councillor and this is my job and I'm not complaining about it. What I'm annoyed is that some OGLs don't seem to realize that they ARE OGLs and that we're already running on a schedule tighter than Beyonce's ass (Beyonce's ass is WHOA-MAMA tight for anyone who's in doubt) and any delay is just freaking annoying. Now I have to rush out 2 days' worth of stuff in like half a day. Apparently people don't seem to understand that I have a life too that doesn't just revolve around Council and now everything's been thrown to hell.

And if anyone's going to argue that OGLs have a life too, they had like 4 days to do the damn thing. Even if they're abnormally pious and observe the Sabbath and stuff like that, it's still 3 days. Technically, 3.5 days but let's be nice. Half an hour out of 3 days is clearly too much to ask sometimes. Yes, Council comes with its fair share of delays which I'm all too familiar with. But sometimes it gets too redonkulous for my taste.

Hope things improve. Looks like another meeting to discuss improvements to the communication structure of the P.101 system needs to be held. Gah.

Kay, enough bitching.

Met up with Davis and YongYong for lunch at Thaipan today. Discovered that MRT + Bus is much faster than Bus because I'm slow like that. Met Davis at Bedok MRT and had a fun 10 seconds messaging YongYong cute messages.

[Messaging]
Lino: Hey Chun, I'll be a bit late cause I met a friend and got a bit distracted. On the bus now =)
[5 seconds later]
Davis: Hey, I'll be a bit late cause I distracted a friend. On the bus now.

Little spastic things that remind me of how great my friends are. Yay for Spazz!

Crashed VS for a while and saw Wei Yang, KayFong, Timo and Ivan. Although to be fair, I kinda roared across half the canteen for Ivan. Talked for a while with Ivan and Timo, glad to see them still surviving Os. Yay pseudo-sibilance. Saw some people whom I didn't wanna see and I think they saw me too. Mutual ignorance was established and we went on our merry ways. Couple of people I wanted to talk to but they were busy. Deciding that just saying 'hi' would look retarded in front of their friends, I decided to leave. Plus I was hungry.

Walked into Thaipan and saw Mr Cheng. My jaw literally dropped. Yu Ting came in after he left. My jaw dropped again. Neither ChunYong nor Davis bothered helping me to pick it up, too engrossed in eating were they. Can't blame them; Thaipan food is absolutely gorgeous. The butter squid seemed just a tad lacking today, but the Thaipan Fried Rice (less chilli please!) was as awesome as ever. Both of them looked tired (as usual, no surprises there ladies and gentlemen) so we didn't talk as much as I would have liked. Still, it was nice just to sit there and enjoy their company, letting the memories of the days past flood my mind. 4G may have been a bitch class, but it was MY bitch class and I enjoyed the hell out of it. Would love another 4G gathering, preferably sans certain people. But they can always be ignored. So whatever. Gosh, I'm super tired.

P.101 + WGM + Dance tomorrow. Can't wait to see my:

Imba GrandDad (ZhenQiang)
Ahncient Egypshun Lashar Beems GrandMum (SuVen)
Tri-Sexual Dad (Hadi)
Twin-Slash-Incest Partner Sister (Hannah)
Younger-but-bigger-therefore-elder Brother (Jarwiiis)
Vietnamese Brother (WET)

Yes, we're like a family alright. First there was the Brady Bunch.

Watch out people, now there's the InBredy bunch.

Nights all, I'm zonking out already.

And I'm off again =)

Thursday, November 05, 2009



Tag Replies!
Alvin: Omg Ris Low is like so over.
Tamim: Maybe for you. You probably ate the paper.
Hadi: Ty ty
Hannah: Awww I <3 you to the ends of the world too.

I really liked running through the rain today on my way home.

It reminded me of happy times in VS.
Yes, I had happy times in the rain. Seriously, amazingly happy times.

A tinge of nostalgia hits me again today. Oh how I sometimes look back to the VS Sec 3 days and wish I could re-live some of those days again. But it's all past now and there's the Council people to enjoy and spend time with. Time to treasure those memories cause I don't wanna look back and realize I didn't.

In a cell, the past is within, the present without.

OP tomorrow. Pray for me people, and wish me luck. God knows I need tons of it tomorrow. And sleep too. Sweet delicious sleep.

Yet I'm blogging. Stupid me. I should really stop blogging.

Tuesday, November 03, 2009



Tag Replies!
Hadi: Yeah, it's the guy in me. Violence in video games is good. Fighting games have violence. Fighting games are good. Mmm... Blood...
Hannah: Literature has allowed me to tap into the little emo-emo parts of me. Also, emo-emo looks like some weird ass bra shape.

Cause there's just that little jealousy in me whenever the two of them talk. Little itty-bitty teensy-weensy pang of "damn, why am I not in that convo?"

Which, of course, considering how often I do talk to them, sounds absolutely ridonkulous even to me. And it pretty much is ridonkulous. Gosh, why do I crave attention so much at times. Naughty naughty Lino. Silly silly Lino. Attention-whoring is bad. Remember how much you dislike megalomaniacs? Don't go turning into one yourself! Snap out of it, snap out of it!

Okay, that was kinda weird. Pseudo-schizophrenia is fun. Especially when you do it in front of your classmates and they kinda freak out. It's like yay omg woo hoo!

Chinese A Levels today was boomz. The composition was hard like no one's business and paper 2 didn't cheer me up. Needless to say, I think multiple jaws hit the ground when we saw Question 2 and the absolutely never-before-seen format that it came in. I literally rubbed my eyes and wondered if I had inhaled some kind of brand-new aerated marijuana. That, or the stress from council had finally gotten to me. Alas, the question was really so and I did it with as much care and concern as I usually do. Seriously. No, there's no weird blanked-out text or sarcasm, I really did it with utmost care and concern! It's A levels people, Lino does not screw around with Cambridge and their old crumpet-scoffing tea-sipping Examinators (Now with even less marks!) because academics determine all in Singapore. Or at least that's what Mum says.

For all the importance that was put on grades, you'd think I'd be able to transmute plastic to gold, or something remotely useful with all that effort invested. Unfortunately, investing effort into studies gets me to places where I have to invest more effort to get to places where I have to invest more effort. This cycle goes on until the final stage where I don't have to invest any more effort. After all, dead people can't dig their own graves can they?

[Random] Yay Eagle Owl Mousie! [/Random]

On that same note, I think the magnitude of Pirating 101 (Henceforth abbreviated as P101 although I don't know why I bother explaining, it's my blog) has finally hit me. It's not all about fun and laughter and getting to know more people, although that's one of the perks about the job. It's also about the responsibility and vetting proposals and working together with people. Which frankly is quite tough for me because in VS, I liked being the slavedriving bitch that never worked with people but had people working for him. And now in JC, doing that will get my ass kicked and/or fired by people very very capable of doing so. Which signals the need for a change. I could put in some lame stuff about this being an emergency and drawing lessons learned and stuff but to elaborate any further would be so lame that any guy reading this would no longer be a man. That's right, there are now jokes so lame, they cause involuntary emasculation. And stuff like that. It's the 12.19 brain talking. What remains of the brain.

hoahdoaihsoidhaoshdiuaher heheheheheheh HAHAHAHAHAHAH spluttergurglechoke.

Needed to get that out.

Happy Tree Friends has served as a constant reminder to me that violence is funny to watch but very very bad to do unto other people (assuming that I don't want violence done unto me. and I don't). This is why I've resorted to more pleasant and civilized means of settling problems. After all, we all know that the cleanest way to kill a man is with a hammer. Pounding and smashing is, after all, splatter-free.

I think. 12.22 brain ain't any saner than the 12.19 brain.

And now the 12.23 brain is telling me that I must be off. I would argue, but it's kinda my brain. To avoid descending into a spiral of madness, I shall not argue with my brain.

and I'm off again.

Sunday, November 01, 2009



okay, even Hadi has updated his blog which means I should too. No offense Hadz.

Bought Tekken 6 and not regretting it in the least. Lili Rochefort is one sexy hot ass chick that kicks just as much ass as she has. Wow, that was a lot of ass.

but yeah, tekken6 is awesome sauce. strongly recommended to-be-picked-up for any other fighting game enthusiast out there! both the girls and the guys are incredibly smexy. Okay, it's not worth forking out $65 for eyecandy alone (particularly when websites such as Www.FightersGeneration.Com provide smashingly good coverage) but it's definitely going to blow you away. I'm using a small-ass SD tv and I was still blown to bits by the amazing detail. So if you're using a giant HD tv (I'm looking at you, Ian), this game is going to knock your socks off.

okay, enough gaming. there's A level chinese tomorrow and I spent today sick/playing games. woo.

1st OGL meeting went well. I'm really encouraged by the Pirating101 people especially cause they sure look like an enthusiastic bunch haha. Looks like Hannah and I picked well =) Minor conflicts popping up, but well, they've been (sorta) cleared up.

and back to happy tree friends for nice fun before i sleep. gosh i'm a pig.

actual updates to come next time.

and I'm off again