Thursday, May 28, 2009



Okay I'm back to blog, whee =)

Sorry for like the one month long hiatus but it was a break from www.fierydragoon.blogspot.com that I sorely sorely needed. Somehow, blogging just wasn't as fun anymore, somehow somehow somehow. Is it because it has outlived its purpose of just being a general dumping ground for my endless stream of thoughts, most of which are bitchy and need to be vented? Nah, I don't think so, I'll always use this to express those delightfully wonderful thoughts. Ahh, bitchiness.

I guess it's because I never really blogged for anyone but myself. It started out as a place for just me, myself and I to write ( okay type ) down my thoughts and just read through them at some later point in Life to see how much I've grown. Along the way, with the attention my blog was receiving courtesy of particularly vicious posts, I made it private. Which is something I should have done from the very beginning.

Oh well, whatever it is, I'm back to blog, at least for today so there shall be rejoicing and dancing in the streets I hope ^^

The past one month in MJC has been, well, crazy crazy crazy. If it weren't for the Councillors and Thomas, I'd have gone stark raving mad by now. Although come to think of it, if it weren't for Council in the first place, a huge portion of that stressload probably wouldn't have surfaced anyway. Not that I regret joining Council; I know these wonderful stressful memories will be all the more sweeter once I leave Council and MJC, yeah, I'm going to look back and be like "Wow, those were some damn hard times. But I wouldn't trade it for the world."

On another note, certain Choir people have been getting on my nerves lately. Well, getting on my nerves. I mean, it's one thing to laugh at me behind my back, it's another thing to keeping banging into me. And yes, I do know who was the one who tried to push me down the stairs, which all the more disgusts me. Thankfully, I'm still able to keep my perception of choir people as nice and sweet, and isolate my disgust and pity at these barbaric ones. I've a feeling that come OGL selections, if any of them are interviewed, I'm going to torture them and not let them enter. While this is mostly personal, I don't see how, on a professional level, they can/should become OGLs anyway with their behaviour. And it doesn't help that the ringleader is viciously ugly, seriously. Like ughly, with extra ugh.

I'm happy to say that my walk with God Daddy up above has been improving. Slowly, definitely slowly, but also very definitely improving. Yet again, it's been one of those points in my life where I woke up and realized that I was ( and still am? ) being retarded and immature and dammit-I-SO-need-to-change. I guess I'm thankful that Mum talked to me about my studies and all, I really learnt a lot about that and became so much more aware of what my life currently is and what's it probably going to be like in the future.

Now my heart is filled with a kind of dread for the future ahead, knowing that I have this huge responsibility to support my brother. No, I shouldn't say "huge", that's somewhat negative in tone I suppose. It's just a responsibility, my responsibility as a brother. Yet I cannot avoid wondering what life would be like if my brother wasn't the way he is now. Would I be a better person, or a worse person? Or would I even exist? Hmmm, questions to forever consider and answers to forever seek.

Ah, so many mysteries of life. And now to play Pokemon Platinum/Revise for Chem =)