Sunday, April 06, 2008



Well, had my birthday celebration yesterday. T'was really fun. Thanks to all that came over, especially Davis and ChunYong =)

I'm enjoying life now. Learning to release unnecessary burdens...I'm much more relaxed now.

Got so caught up caring before, caring about everything and anything except what was truly important. Caring about people who didn't want me to care about them, or wanted me to care without reciprocating the concern. I don't need people like these. I have people that matter in my life, people that have stuck by me throughout this entire pseudo-ordeal and helped me see who my true friends are. It's not about being with everyone, but being with someone, and being someone who can truly help another.

Been so immature all this while, caught up in self-delusion and airheaded-conceit. Time to learn and show who I can really be, who I really am. Life isn't meant to be lived depressed and worried, and I don't want to live that way. It's not worth it, hurting over someone who doesn't care in the least, and people who won't return anything no matter how much you've done for them. So why bother? Yes, there's that entire thing about friendship, and sticking it out for a little bit of hope. I'm not slamming the door in anyone's face, but it's not fair to me either. If they still want to be friends then by all means, I still love them as they are. But if not, I'm not going to keep begging them, and throwing away pride and dignity for some of them whom I didn't even wrong.

No, I'm not doing that. It's just not worth being unhappy over people like these.

So I'm going to be happy in life, like life is meant to be. Happy being with people I know, and even people I don't know, getting to know them. Being with people who will stick with you, who won't abandon you just because they're angry, but instead true friends who will tell you and help you change. That's the kind of people I need with me.