Tuesday, November 13, 2007



It's not about style, it's about substance.
It's not about numbers, it's about the effort.
It's not about fun, it's about the knowledge.

Until now, I still feel the reminiscences of Peer Support Leadership Training Camp twothousandseven gnawing at my heart. I revisit it in day and in dream, thinking about what happened. Smiling at all the spasticity, all the fun, all the learning, all the bonds we built.

So you know what? I realized I honestly don't give a friggin damn how good or how bad Veloci-T was. I can't change how it went. And I didn't go through it. But I went through PSLTC, and that's more than enough. 4 days of peer support, peer support and peer support. That means Fun, Laughter, Peace and Joy, with a capital Eff, El, Pee and Jay.

I realized that it really is a blessing in disguise that I was not chosen as an SL. Honestly, I don't like the idea of Veloci-T and the direction it's going in. Again, I'm not saying it's useless, but I don't like how it's going. And perhaps that camp would have been more miserable than happy.

I'm not contented to slave under Randell Siow. I'm not happy to do sai kang for the Green Shirts. I'm seriously fed up with that crap. It didn't seem to work when I went through the camp as a CI ( Because the CLs lacked ACTUAL leadership qualities ) and as a JL ( Because the Green Shirts ran everything )

Maybe they like it that way.

Just like how I love the way PSLTC runs. By the ExCo, for its members. Not the teachers, not the facilitators, but by the people who went through that camp, and planned the camp to be the camp that the juniors want, and more. Ms Tang, lovely teacher that she is, allowed us to be creative and innovative with our ideas, taking them in directions that were before unthinkable. And it worked, didn't it. But it more than worked. It worked well. Very well.

I love Peer Support. They're such a beautiful pair of words. They teach us to be friends, and more than just friends. They teach us to be true friends, to help each other in time of need. For everyone to share the burden, to lighten it for everyone. They show us how through cohesiveness and true supporting, the PSLs can make heavy work so like a feather. So easily lifted, so easily completed.

Perhaps I'm biased. But let me live in this biased world of beautiful illusions and delusions. Let me linger in this world where PSB is the premier leadership organization. Let me drown myself in the blissful illusions, where Peer Support Leaders are the true leaders of the school.

Let me dream.

And after I wake up.
Let me make that a reality.

[postscript]
I'm looking forward to the ExCo meeting tomorrow. Hopefully with the agenda sent out beforehand, everyone will come prepared.
Heh, yeah right.
*Snicker*
As if.