Friday, October 19, 2007



If anyone asks, no that post is not going to be taken down. Ever. Nothing, except for spelling mistakes, grammatical and other minor errors will be edited. That post came about because I meant it, honestly, and it will never change. If anything, there are lessons to be learnt from that post, both for others and myself. And in time to come, years down the road, I will look through this blog, read the posts and see how I've changed, matured.

And without this post, I lose one part of it. I cannot do that. I will not do that. And I make no apologies about it, because this is something I believe very strongly in.



I was MSNing with someone...and he pointed out something that, throughout the period of time I've realized, but never really thought about:

'i cant explain this but i think you will turn out fantastic eventually. serious. no..after all the scoldings and trials, eventually sec 4, you ll be fantastic '

To go through this, to learn from it. It's bad now, but eventually, eventually, I'll be much better for it. I'll be a true leader, someone who can really lead others. Someone with the true leadership qualities, far more developed than what I have now. Someone that I want to be, that I want to be.

It's tough now, but the benefits far outweigh the pain.

So I'll go through it. I'll enjoy all the pain, all the sadness, all the frustration. It's part of life. Every feeling is to be enjoyed. Joy, pain, frustration...God created all these for a reason. Not to reject them, but to truly feel them, being able to accept the feeling we feel, learn what how why we feel it, and move on to experience the next emotion, the next thing.

I don't know why people hide from feelings. I don't know why I myself hide from them. Every feeling and emotion should be enjoyed, thoroughly.

Reflection. Look at the mistake. Enjoy the shame, knowing that you're learning. And then reap the rewards of maturity and wisdom.

I want this. I want this roller-coaster of emotions to be enjoyed. All the stress, the joy, the tension, the sadness, the anxiety, the frustration, it should all mean something. It does mean something. It means I'm learning, living and growing.

God put me on this ground for a reason, and it wasn't to fritter away my time. He put me here to learn, live. He gave me Life for his purpose, and it was to help. I should not be wasting God's time on this earth, I should treasure every moment of it.

I've been down.
But now I'm blessed.
Felt a revelation coming round.