Tuesday, April 24, 2007



Maximilian - "I love you Linus!"
Me - "I love you too Max, I'd love for you to die. Please do."
Maximilian - "Linus, don't conceal your feelings for me!"
Me - "That's strange, I always thought the immense hatred and desire for you to burn and die was thin veiled, if at all."
Maximilian - "Don't be so mean lah Linus. We're best friends you know."
Raphael Ong - "Yar, the two of you can be best friends!"
Me - "I don't recall wanting to stab my best friends in the face 7 times a minute."
Raphael Ong - "Don't be so mean lah."
Me - "Why should I pretend to be friends with Max? Firstly, he's failing his subjects. Secondly, he has an abominable attitude towards studying. Thirdly, he's an all-around a-hole and I don't even want to pretend to be friends with him. He can fail for all I care, it's just one more slave I get to recruit next time."
Raphael Ong - "You're terrible you know."
Me - "I didn't start it for a reason, you did."

Oh, the joy of dumb, retarded people. I hate them I hate them I hate them.

What is so mind-blowingly interesting about DotA that it apparently warrants endless discussion during class. Not to mention that the three people discussing it are all stupid people who are failing their subjects, asking STUPID questions and therefore wasting time, and daring to complain about it too.

Life has kicked me several times in the balls lately. The whole ELDDS debacle, further worsened by people who have absolutely no relation to the comm whatever ( read: Extra-kias with attitude problems. Also see: Death ) who try and influence others. It just makes me sick that a Sec 4 who is suppose to be mature can be so deeply superficial and biased. And it's not bad enough that he himself is bad, but he can influence others too.

Of course I've had to scold people, and thus leave a bad impression. If I don't scold them, who will? Then what gets done? Don't even mention not scolding because it doesn't work on those types of retardheads who will not respect authority. Apparently, just because I'm younger means that I don't deserve respect. Ok, in that case, let's go kick some Sec 2s and 1s in the face then. I mean, your incredibly superficial reasons justify that kind of behaviour.

But don't worry, I'm a bigger person than that. Obviously you haven't, and never will because you're just that patheticc, but I learn from my mistakes, and the mistakes of others. And it's fine with me, because I"m the one who has a future and will work towards that future and achieve it. Meanwhile, you will be in your sick sad private world with all the people that you manage to suck in through your black hole of shit, retardedness and all-round fucked up crapshit.

Yes, I just swore. I'm rather dispirited and disillusioned now, so please give me leeway.

I dread the day that I will be forced to watch MidSummer Night's Dream, because I'll have to watch it knowing that your ass-face ( I'll call it that because the same thing comes out the cavity: shit ) will be leering somewhere near me. Let's just hope my brain cells don't diffuse to yours. And then again, yours is so filled with shit and rocks that there's probably not enough space to begin with.

Beauty is only skin deep, but stupidity and superficiality are all you.

And to that very special person in his life ( you know who you are ), please don't bother trying to persuade / threaten me. I have thought this through and through, seeing it from both sides of the issue. He has treated me with utmost contempt, and I will not stand for it. If he can do it, watch me. Because no one in VS has ever seen just how bloody devious and cunning and all-out evil I can be. I have never seen the need to, but if your very special (read: mentally-retarded) boyfriend would like to try, then by all means, go ahead.

These few days have been stressful. Really stressful.

I mean...

There's authority, and then there's abusing authority.

If you are the head of a CCA, then good for you. But when it comes to handover, I mean...We planned it for 3.30~4. But not only did you call for CO to stop practice WITHOUT OUR CONSENT, but you basically force us to comply to your rules.

Then why choose us?
WHY CHOOSE US AT ALL?
WHY DON'T YOU AND YOUR FANTASTIC LEADERSHIP SKILLS JUST LEAD THE DAMN CCA THE WAY YOU WANT IT?

I mean, you're obviously not satisfied with how WE"RE doing it, even though you said that you've "Given power" to us. Ok right, and that was HOW many ANNOUNCEMENTS ago?

One day (OR THE DAY ) of the camp, our proposal was rejected.
You changed our games.
You changed our groupings.

If YOUR seniors screwed you up that way, changing YOUR plans at the last minute, how efficient would you be? Very? Yes, you can say that now. Because you've had 1 year's experience already.

But please consider us OK? I mean, we just took over and we're still learning! You can't force your expectations on us. Were you and your comm so efficient when you started out?

I learnt about Living and Leaving a Legacy from the leadership talk.

Congrats, you've left your mark, and your legacy.
But what happened to teaching us?

Do you know that to us, it seems like we're expected to just be THAT good? I mean, you're angry, but please consider the feelings of US ok? That excuse about pushing us to be "better than you" , well, there's a limit! It's stressing us out, that our plans are changed by YOU. IT hurts us ok, IT REALLY DOES!

WE'RE NOT YOUR DOGS.
WE'RE NOT THERE TO DO YOUR BIDDING
YOU PICKED US
THEN WHY WON'T YOU LET US HANDLE IT?
IN THAT CASE, WHY PICK A COMM IF YOU CANNOT LET THEM DO IT THEIR WAY, WITH A NEW SYSTEM
MAYBE YOU DON'T SEE THE EFFICIENCY, WELL, WE'LL WORK IT OUT.
WE'VE ADMITTED OUR FLAWS, HAVE YOU?

Did you say sorry for changing our plans last-minute?
Did you say sorry for changing our groups?
Did you tell us that you were going to change our groups?
No, you didn't.

I'm not the only one angry about this, so please don't think that way. I'm just the only one who dares to say it out. You call it defiance, I'll call it moral courage. And if you want, ask any of the black shirts, and I'm very sure they'll agree with me. I'm not criticizing YOU, because you are a nice person, but you're stifling us.

Yang En...Alphonsus...John...Me

Do you have any idea how angry the four of us were that day?
Do you know that we were about to breakdown already? Because it was SO unfair to us, that OUR PLANS, made by US, were changed at YOUR whim and fancy?

I'm not sure if you've even read this far, but if you haven't and you've just gone off to retort with an angry blogspot, then go ahead, it just tells me how much you care about us. That you don't care how we feel.

And I'm, perhaps, the only one who has the moral courage to say this, but I really think that you're not that good a leader.

A leader should be able to lead, and nurture.

You've led, sure. Not always in ways that we've liked, but still, you're the one in power.

Now it's our turn. Let us do it our way.

That's all we ask.

We're the new committee. You picked us. You and YOUR committee picked us.
So let us do it our way.
Please.