Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Spirit

Randall - "Wah. Godma he dunno. Say 'Tuition teacher" only he knows."
Me - "Shocking how Jo-shen knows his godma by 'Tuition Teacher' instead of 'Godma' "

Just realized I've been on a major blogging spree. I've blogged everyday for...[checks] 4 days. That's normally more than I blog in 2 weeks. Woo hoo. Yay yay. Rah!

Anyways, school was a bitch today. Played cards in the morning, substituting Uno cards for poker cards. Lost a lot of games...My cards really really sucked lah. Pulled off a surprise victory when even Kevin thought I couldn't win though =3.

Went for the Victorian 130 Challenge briefing. Feeling kinda inspired ( and bored) now. Gosh, I sure hope my class can really bond together to pull off this activity. We've got 5.4 days to plan it, 3.6 hours to actually do it. What can we do in 3.6 hours? Bake a cake? There was a suggestion that we go and get 130 strikes in bowling within 3.6 hours. I was thrilled with the idea, until I realized that this is real life. That's like almost 40 strikes per hour. With 20 lanes, 2 strikes per lane. Sounds ok, until you realize that our class can't bowl for nuts. Those that can bowl ( Dexter, Mervin and MAYBE Clement and I =3) can't possibly bowl for 3.6 hours straight. 2 hours of bowling and my arm muscles ( yes I do have some stop sniggering ) were stiff as hell for a day. 3.6 hours and my arm will just drop off.

Went for the NEWater trip thing. I can safely say that I was absolutely bored stiff throughout the entire bloody thing. I didn't even learn anything that could help me with the project. Which by the way, looks difficult. It's basically a series of reports, reports and reports. Damn. Partnered with Adeebeeda and Ridha and split up the assignment. Better get to work sometime soon, like the weekend. Those going for the talk next Friday, good luck. Bring a pillow. And pray you don't get my tour guide.

Obviously, Mr Meyer's advice about not eating anything spicy or with honey or sweet and stuff like that went through one ear and straight out the other. Moment we arrived back in school, I bought chocolates, Adeeb bought some curry Twisties. And apparently Benjamin ate something that was advised against too.

Mr Meyer said that our drama was ok, but obviously, ok means "Good enough for people with low standards". The emotion level and overall performance was up a notch today though. Maybe Mr Meyer's words really did inspire us or something. Anyways, I know I love acting. The stage is a space where you can throw away reality and be someone you aren't, yet bring some of yourself to that character. Emotions rise to the surface and tell a story that looks simple, but is yet so deep. While concentrating on my character; what and how I was suppose to portray him, I was thinking and really bringing all the pain and frustration I ever felt in my life up again, reliving the experience. When I opened my eyes, I was shocked to find tears in my eyes. It was worth it though, since this time, I could really bring some level of depth and emotion to my character. Nah, it's not actually my "character". It really is still me, just in a different light. I believe in my character. After all, I believe in myself.

Thought about how narrow-minded our society is, how unwilling it is to accept anything new. Doesn't anyone else find it sad that Singapore, for all its accomplishments, is so narrow-minded? Homosexuality for one. From what I've seen, if you're not a homophobe, then you are one of them. I really find that so wrong. I'm neutral on this issue, but apparently, because of my neutral stand, I'm automatically regarded as "gay". Don't those homophobes know that homosexuality is most often ( or always) genetic? You don't just become gay, you are born that way. God...These people didn't choose to be gay. They are already having a hard time accepting that fact, and learning to live with themselves.!

Do we, society, really need to make them feel worse? It's not as if we non-homosexuals are PERFECT in every way! Every single one of us has short-comings don't we? We should, no, we have to learn to overlook and overcome these faults. So they like people of the same gender. So? That doesn't make them wrong, doesn't make them any less human. They're just like everyone else!

This society of ours needs to change. We need to be more understanding...That change has to start somewhere...

Indeed...

Why not let it start from me?