Thursday, December 22, 2005

Why do I even put titles?

You want a present from the heart? Ok choose: Blood or muscle tissue." - Me

Alrighties, it's 9.54 in the morning according to my watch and I'm pretty sure it's not the best time to blog. I should be doing my homework, I should be finishing up my Chinese storybook, I should be doing my assessment, but homework intrigues me. I can stare at it for hours and hours.

Tuition teacher is coming in about an hour and a half, gotta start reading at 11.

I'm just lying here on my bed, the room is dark, the curtains are closed and my bro just went out of the room. There's some stupid maintenance work thing going outside my house, can hear the irritatingly loud drill noises.

Sigh...I was reflecting last night, and I realized that I actually keep a constant personality, it's just that I make such different kinds of comments, that people are confused to who I really am. So far, only 1 person, Max, has seen me for who I am. He told me that I use humour and/or cynicism to keep people from getting too close.

Do I really? I used to think that humour and cynicism were part of me, as in...Oh screw that bloody drill, I can't think properly. Good, it stopped. I never realized that I could be using humour and cynicism to keep people from discovering -me-, I just thought that I am cynical and humour just came along with it...

Ah well, in any case, I think I've found -me-. I have a constant personality, that is, one which is subject to changes. So my personality is consistent in being different.